Preface
Table of Contents:
Chapter 1 Issue:
My Commitment To The Marriage/1969-1970
Story: Honeymoon Scene in Spain-Jeff Tells Me He's Bisexual
Chapter 2 Issue:
The Fear Factor
Story: Gainesville To Houston/1971-1981/The Realization of AIDS
Chapter 3 Issue: Choices That Would Save My Life
Story: Choosing Celibacy To Protect Myself/1974-1985
Chapter 4 Issue: The Long Awaited Diagnosis/June 1992
Story: Facing The Diagnosis of AIDS-What Will Happen Now?
Chapter 5 Issue:
Honesty And Truth- No More Lies
Story: Telling Parents, Family, And Friends About Jeff's Illness
Chapter 6 Issue:
The Why Factor
Story: Why Did This Happen To Me?
Chapter 7 Issue:
Is There A God?
Story: Questioning My Faith And Belief In God
Chapter 8 Issue:
The Frustration Factor-Shock and Disbelief
Story: Jeff's First Few Days In The Hospital
Chapter 9 Issue:
Personal Touches In An Impersonal Environment
Story: Making A Long Hospital Stay Safe, Comfortable, And Less Fearful
Chapter 10 Issue:
Organize And Prioritize
Story: Jeff Comes Home After 2 Weeks In The Hospital/July 3, 1992
Chapter 11 Issue:
Baby Steps
Story: The Long And Very Slow Recovery
Chapter 12 Issue:
Stability And Plateaus/A Constant Underlying Theme
Story: Learning To Adjust To Whatever Happens/Don't Try To Control
Chapter 13 Issue:
Who Will Care For Me/A Constant Underlying Theme
Story: The Fears Of A Wife Facing An Uncertain Future Alone
Chapter 14 Issue:
What Will I Do Without You/A Constant
Underlying Theme
Story: How Will I Deal With My Life Without Him
Chapter 15 Issue:
The Difficulty In Making Long Term Plans/1993-1994
Story: Planning Trips: New York To Visit Parents, Italy Our Second
Honeymoon For My Birthday, and Springfield For Jeff's 25 th Year
College Reunion
Chapter 16 Issue:
The Different Levels And Ways To Comfort and Support
Story: The Times When Jeff Comforted Me, I Comforted Him, And We
Comforted Each Other
Chapter 17 Issue:
Afraid To Be Optimistic/A Constant Underlying Theme
Story: Constant Setbacks and Frustrations With A Life-Threatening
Illness
Chapter 18 Issue:
Meeting Your Own Needs As A Caregiver
Story: Taking Care Of Myself While Taking Care Of Jeff
Chapter 19 Issue:
Humor-How To Laugh At The Crisis-It Isn't Easy Day After Day
Story: Laughing Through The Tears
Chapter 20 Issue:
Anger, Hate, and Blame
Story: I Blame You For Getting Ill -I Could Not Control My Rage
Chapter 21 Issue:
Little Things Are Difficult/Big Things Are
Overwhelming
Story: Everything Was Impossible We Were So Overwhelmed
Chapter 22 Issue:
What To Do When Nothing Is Working
Story: Pleading With The Doctors/Find Something To Help Jeff
Chapter 23 Issue:
How To Let Go
Story: As The Journey Of Letting Go Continues So Is The Helpless Feeling
Chapter 24 Issue:
Making the Decision for Hospice Intervention - July, 1994
Story: He trusted me with his life and with Hospice help we Prepared to Say Good-Bye
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